I want to hire a young man or woman to come once a week and play the violin for me. Maybe not any time soon, but he has to have the passion of a player who enjoys the spine tingling notes he plays and it has to show in his face.
Until then, I am buying my man his piano so I can always have the music when he desires.
It’s like I don’t even want to travel anymore. I don’t want to be stranded miles and miles away from home with a bag of my selected things. I want to have a window to life where all the locations I desire will come up to that window and allow me to see and observe and enjoy. Maybe it will let me order some local cusine and a specified realm-walker waiter will deliver it to me. Then I can go to sleep in my own bed and enjoy the adventure of the local area.
It’s one of those days where I want to be curled up in a warm blanket on the couch with a good book, and earl grey tea with steamed milk and raw sugar on the ottoman, with a hot bowl of saag, a plate of sushi, with my dogs being calm (for once) at my feet and the external comfort of library work with a side of doggie day-care part time work or a floral shop. With my man picking out good movies, or playing video games and hearing the comfort of his voice droning on about achievements and stats. Yeah, it’s that kind of day :)
Picture in your mind a dice cube suspended on a black background. Twirl the die to see all 6 sides. Now focus on the sphere of black background and picture all the angles you could see the die from.
Now, take a breath, and try to picture all sides of the die simlutationously. If your mind sped up and your spine seemed exposed to air, even for the breifest of seconds (also if the front wrinkle of your brain on the left side of your forehead is throbbing a little) you have experienced the practice of perspective introduced to me from a friend of the past. One of the experiences that allowed me later to feel the space in between time, that elated and delighted me. One of the things that has shaped me as who I am today and one of the stepping stones in a long line of personal enlightenment. If anyone can take a piece of this for their own path, then showing a piece of my strange mind to the world has been worthwhile.
Panting, and my feet bleeding, I scrambled up the drive of the deserted castle. I slammed myself onto the oak door and it burst open, throwing me to the blood-red carpet. I frantically kicked the door closed. With the echoing thud, I rested my head on the dust covered carpeting. Crying, heaving, and sweating through every pore of my broken body. I screamed out of frustration and my sobs vibrated off every wall of the domain. I lay there for an infinitive amount of time hysterically crying and wheezing. My nose filled with dirt and grit; my eyes puffy and swollen with tears and fatigue; all I hear is the sound of my own cries. Finally I settled and pulled myself up with my feeble and bruised arms. Feeling vulnerable, I stepped uneasily through the foyer.
"Is someone there?" A voice exhaled behind me. I shrieked and terrified I pinned myself againt a forbidden wall. I gawked acrrose the way and found a petit figure hovering overhead the stairs. From the glow of the moon, I could make out a small girl in a long forgotten nightgown. In her hand she held a grubby teddy bear. I could not see her face for the shadow of darkness.
"Yes," I found my voice, "there is someone."
I watched her descend the staircase with great uncertainty only a child could have. I could now see she possessed cascading auburn hair that fell delicately around her fragile shoulders. Her eyes were a piercing brown that no person with even the coldest heart could resist.
"Why are you here?" she questioned with curiosity.
"I am fleeing my parents who are searching for me." What I failed to mention is my parents were also police searching for my deseased body and a suspect to place the blame of my so-called death. "Why is it that you’re here little one?"
"My parents sent me here for punishment." She said it flatly and yet coldly at the same time. I shivered but tried not to let her see.
"Punishment of what?"
"Living," As she said this, tears welled in her eyes and she clutched her filthy stuffed-animal. I enfolded her in my arms and let her cry onto me.
Without realizing what I was saying I told her I would become her parent with her permission. She gratefully accepted. And just like that, I was a mother.
As she fell asleep in my arms I questioned how we would both surivie. We are indeed out in the middle of nowhere and I lost sight of the last town a ways behind me. I believe there is a no-name town somewhere up the road with a market and employment. This little girl needed me, and I was soon to be declared dead in my own home.
The little girl, now eight and healthy, and I, at seventeen years of age, are still living in this castle. I have refurnished and decorated the place so it is more like a home than a deserted fortress. I have acquired a stable job and Anna, as I call her, is being tutored here. I live as a peaceful mother with no history and she as a superb dauther with no past.
"Sometimes in literature, things become classic for their subject matter. Sometimes literature becomes classic because it tells a good story. Sometimes it becomes a classic because its just damn well written."
Falling and being in love- revealing all your flaws, your fears, your quirks, in the knowledge and trust that your partner will love you.
Marriage- knowing each and every flaw and quirk and stuggle of your partner, finding strength in eachother and ourselves to uphold dignity and respect; through the good, and the bad, with the persuit of continuously working on it for many many years.
“You have a right to experiment with your life. You will make mistakes. And they are right too. No, I think there was too rigid a pattern. You came out of an education and are supposed to know your vocation. Your vocation is fixed, and maybe ten years later you find you are not a teacher anymore or you’re not a painter anymore. It may happen. It has happened. I mean Gauguin decided at a certain point he wasn’t a banker anymore; he was a painter. And so he walked away from banking. I think we have a right to change course. But society is the one that keeps demanding that we fit in and not disturb things. They would like you to fit in right away so that things work now.”—Anaïs Nin (via thatkindofwoman)
[x] Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs (1937) [x] Pinocchio (1940) [x] Fantasia (1940) [x] Dumbo (1941) [x] Bambi (1942) [ ] Song of the South (1946) [x] Cinderella (1950) [x] Alice in Wonderland (1951) [x] Lady and the Tramp (1955) [x] 101 Dalmatians (1961) [x] Mary Poppins (1964) [x] Peter Pan (1953) [x] Sleeping Beauty (1959)
DISNEY’S DARK AGE
[x] The Sword In The Stone (1963) [x] The Jungle Book (1967) [x] The Aristocats (1970) [ ] Bedknobs & Broomsticks (1971) [x] Robin Hood (1973) [x] Pete’s Dragon (1977) [x] The Many Adventures of Winnie the Pooh (1977) [x] The Rescuers (1977) [x] The Fox and the Hound (1981) [x] The Black Cauldron (1985) [x] The Great Mouse Detective (1986) [x] Oliver and Company (1986)
THE DISNEY RENAISSANCE
[x] The Little Mermaid (1989) [x] The Rescuers Down Under (1990) [x] Beauty and the Beast (1991) [x] Aladdin (1992) [x] The Lion King (1994) [x] A Goofy Movie (1995) [x] Pocahontas (1995) [x] James and the Giant Peach (1996) [x] The Hunchback of Notre Dame (1996) [x] Hercules (1997) [x] Mulan (1998) [x] Tarzan (1999)
DISNEY’S MODERN AGE
[x] Fantasia 2000 (2000) [ ] Dinosaur (2000) [x] The Emperor’s New Groove (2000) [x] Atlantis: The Lost Empire (2001) [x] Lilo & Stitch (2002) [x] Treasure Planet (2002) [x] Brother Bear (2003) [ ] Home on the Range (2004) [ ] Chicken Little (2005) [x] Bolt (2008) [x] Enchanted (2007) [x] Meet the Robinsons (2007) [ ] The Princess and the Frog (2009) [ ] Tangled (2010)
[ ] The Return of Jafar (1994) [ ] Aladdin and the King of Thieves (1996) [ ] Beauty and the Beast - The Enchanted Christmas (1997) [ ] Beauty and the Beast - Belle’s Magical World (1998) [ ] Pocahontas II - Journey to a New World (1998) [x] The Lion King II: Simba’s Pride (1998) [x] An Extremely Goofy Movie (2000) [ ] The Little Mermaid II: Return to the Sea (2000) [ ] Lady & the Tramp II - Scamp’s Adventure (2001) [ ] Return to Never Land (2002) [x] Tarzan & Jane (2002) [ ] Cinderella II - Dreams Come True (2002) [ ] The Hunchback of Notre Dame II (2002) [ ] Atlantis - Milo’s Return (2003) [ ] 101 Dalmations 2: Patch’s London Adventure (2003) [ ] The Jungle Book 2 (2003) [ ] Mulan 2 (2004) [x] The Lion King 1 1/2 (2004) [ ] Kronk’s New Groove (2005) [ ] Lilo & Stitch 2: Stitch Has a Glitch (2005) [ ] Tarzan II (2005) [ ] Bambi II (2006) [ ] The Fox and the Hound 2 (2006) [ ] Cinderella III - A Twist in Time (2007) [ ] The Little Mermaid - Ariel’s Beginning (2008)
[x] Toy Story (1995) [x] Toy Story 2 (1999) [x] A Bug’s Life (1998) [x] Monsters Inc. (2001) [x] Finding Nemo (2003) [x] The Incredibles (2004) [x] Cars (2006) [x] Ratatouille (2007) [x] Wall-E (2008) [x] Up (2009) [ ] Toy Story 3 (2010) [ ] Brave (2012)
“It was not beauty at all that she wanted, or, depressed though she was, she would have bought a ticket to somewhere or other upon the Metropolitan railway and gone out to see the recumbent autumnal graces of the countryside. Her mind was groping after something that eluded her experience.”—Sylvia Townsend Warner, Lolly Willowes (via leopoldgursky)
I realized working at that hotel that, it was my sole duty and purpose there to erradicate the existance of a human personality in those rooms. Make the tossled bed, wash the half pot of coffee with spoon and half drank white cup, over-power the smell of a fresh shower mingled with clogne and shampoo. We went about our daily lives pretending no one ever slept in those rooms. The wonderful traces of personality just became empty rooms to me, and I was sad every time I got done and turned to close the door on room no one ever exsited in.
The philosophical question “What is the meaning of life?” means different things to different people. The vagueness of the query is inherent in the word “meaning”, which opens the question to many interpretations, such as: “What is the origin of life?”, “What is the nature of life (and of the universe in which we live)?”, “What is the significance of life?”, “What is valuable in life?”, and “What is the purpose of, or in, (one’s) life?”. These questions have resulted in a wide range of competing answers and arguments, from scientific theories, to philosophical, theological, and spiritual explanations.
These questions are separate from the scientific issue of the boundary between things with life and inanimate objects. Popular beliefs "What is the meaning of life?" is a question many people ask themselves at some point during their lives, most in the context "What is the purpose of life?" Here are some of the many potential answers to this perplexing question. The responses are shown to overlap in many ways but may be grouped into the following categories:
Survival and temporal success …to live every day like it is your last and to do your best at everything that comes before you …to be always satisfied …to live, go to school, work, and die …to participate in natural human evolution, or to contribute to the gene pool of the human race …to advance technological evolution, or to actively develop the future of intelligent life …to compete or co-operate with others …to destroy others who harm you, or to practice nonviolence and nonresistance …to gain and exercise power …to leave a legacy, such as a work of art or a book …to eat …to prepare for death …to spend life in the pursuit of happiness, maybe not to obtain it, but to pursue it relentlessly. …to produce offspring through sexual reproduction (alike to participating in evolution) …to protect and preserve one’s kin, clan, or tribe (akin to participating in evolution) …to seek freedom, either physically, mentally or financially …to observe the ultimate fate of humanity to the furthest possible extent …to seek happiness and flourish, experience pleasure or celebrate …to survive, including the pursuit of immortality through scientific means …to attempt to have many sexual conquests (as in Arthur Schopenhauer’s will to procreate) …to find and take over all free space in this “game” called life …to seek and find beauty …to kill or be killed …No point. Since having a point is a condition of living human consciousness. Animals do not need a point to live or exist. It is more of an affliction of consciousness that there are such things as points, a negative side to evolutionary development for lack of better words.
Wisdom and knowledge …to master and know everything …to be without questions, or to keep asking questions …to expand one’s perception of the world …to explore, to expand beyond our frontiers …to learn from one’s own and others’ mistakes …to seek truth, knowledge, understanding, or wisdom …to understand and be mindful of creation or the cosmos …to lead the world towards a desired situation …to satisfy the natural curiosity felt by humans about life
Ethical …to express compassion …to follow the “Golden Rule” …to give and receive love …to work for justice and freedom …to live in peace with yourself and each other, and in harmony with our natural environment …to protect humanity, or more generally the environment …to serve others, or do good deeds
Religious and spiritual …to find perfect love and a complete expression of one’s humanness in a relationship with God …to achieve a supernatural connection within the natural context …to achieve enlightenment and inner peace …to become like God, or divine …to glorify God …to experience personal justice (i.e. to be rewarded for goodness) …to experience existence from an infinite number of perspectives in order to expand the consciousness of all there is (i.e. to seek objectivity) …to be a filter of creation between heaven and hell …to produce useful structure in the universe over and above consumption (see net creativity) …to reach Heaven in the afterlife …to seek and acquire virtue, to live a virtuous life …to turn fear into joy at a constant rate achieving on literal and metaphorical levels: immortality, enlightenment, and atonement …to understand and follow the “Word of God” …to discover who you are …to resolve all problems that one faces, or to ignore them and attempt to fully continue life without them, or to detach oneself from all problems faced
Philosophical …to give life meaning …to participate in the chain of events which has led from the creation of the universe until its possible end (either freely chosen or determined, this is a subject widely debated amongst philosophers) …to know the meaning of life …to achieve self-actualisation …all possible meanings have some validity …life in itself has no meaning, for its purpose is an opportunity to create that meaning, therefore: …to die …to simply live until one dies (there is no universal or celestial purpose) …nature taking its course (the wheel of time keeps on turning) …whatever you see you see, as in “projection makes perception” …there is no purpose or meaning whatsoever …life may actually not exist, or may be illusory ) …to contemplate “the meaning of the end of life”
Other …to contribute to collective meaning (“we” or “us”) without having individual meaning (“I” or “me”) …to find a purpose, a “reason” for living that hopefully raises the quality of one’s experience of life, or even life in general …to participate in the inevitable increase in entropy of the universe …to make conformists’ lives miserable …to make life as difficult as possible for others (i.e. to compete)
Peace. Tranquility. Comfort. Please allow these things to be entered into my life. And allow the negative, the pain, the depression, these thoughts that make me cry at night when no one is looking. The reactions that no one sees when I bump into a door or table. Allow the good thoughts, the comfort, the love, the creativity to energize my life and give me reason to live. Please. Peace. Time. Tranquility.
Don’t waste time indoors wishing for something better or more enlightening. Go outside and just enjoy the vastness of the heart=earth.
Don’t look directly at the sun for five full minutes. Exceptions include a once in a lifetime chance to see venus pass it and rushing outside; though next time, bring one of those viewing thingies.
Don’t forget to feed the snake.
Never date anyone who doesn’t love books. It makes for boring conversation.
Goodbyes happen. They hurt, they suck, they make you hyperventalate in the car, but after that good long cry, you slowly start to recover into a stronger person.
The end of a generation does not mean the end of experience, or the end of life. One can still make her mark on this world even if she’s the last of her kind.
Always find the best in Work, wiether it be the people or the spirtiual accomplishment of finishing all your tasks that day. It’s not a drag, it’s just something to do. Fills some time, opens a couple more doors, and lets you explore a little more in the corners called life.
Food is essiential, weither you’re grabbing a burger or a snack wrap on the way home, or dinning out with your mother for sushi to ease your soul, food is awesome.
Always keep a favorite memory of the people you love, or a whole file of them.
My favorite from my current is “Make Lovecraft, not Warcraft.”